So, I’m angry today. More than angry actually. I was seething last week, the weekend saw the flaming orange within me subside into a paler shade of peach-pink anger, but today I’m raging red! And you may ask why? Well, a lot many things that have set me off, some that triggered off coz of my own goodness and some due to my self-admitted folly! I’m not sure which one of the two I’m more upset about.
It started last week with a subordinate misbehaving with me at work, which went way beyond my limits of tolerance. Of course, I did not take it lying down and made sure that the subordinate got a scalding chunk of my self-respecting mind.
Off work and back home on a longish leave, I realized that my pet Labrador’s suddenly gone ill unnoticed by others at home. There was no time to react. I just had to act. Now that the poor dog has got some medical help, the least I expect is that he starts eating on his own. Enough of molly-codling and force-feeding torture sessions coz it was time for me to fall ill.
So well, yours truly is down with whooping cough and fever thanks to Mother Nature’s benevolent dose of winters this side of the planet. This was the part where the seething had subsided into a helpless anger. After all, how much anger can an unwell soul do with?
Now, you may question where and how the raging started. Well, it started this morning when I got duped by a fraudster who got plain lucky with my money just coz I was unwell enough to think or act rationally. This is where I admit with a tad of embarrassment for my folly. I refuse to act foolish any further than this to divulge the details of how I lost a decent amount of my hard-earned money today to the doomed-to-hell swines of this world! They’re going to pay hard for the time they chose to do this to me (I’m on an ‘unpaid’ leave attending a personal agenda for some days now). Sob!
And, the finale to my rage saga began when sonny boy started complaining of chest pain this evening, clutching his heart dramatically. It did not help that he has an exam to appear tomorrow and he believes that the pain is not heartburn, though I’m sure it is. Β It took a lot on behalf of his ailing mum to convince the disappointed lad that it wasn’t a heart problem…grrr. After all the fruit salts, Dygienes and muscle relaxing gels coming to his rescue, he now sleeps peacefully. Thank god. But I’m still raging. Not for the unwell dog, son or me, but for those who intended to do bad to me.
I’ve done the best I could to tackle each of the sources of anger my way. What next now? Wait for karma to act. Well, nobody gets spared from the big K…do they? So, let me just sip some cool water (err wait…room-temperature water, cough..cough..) to try douse my anger, count my blessings and end my rant session here.
Thank you for reading patiently. Appreciate your kindness. I’m better than this on other days. Really π
Sorry to hear about all this. Hope you can soon find a way to get past all this. I am sure writing it all out would have helped a bit. Wishing you and your son good healing. And of course your pet too. Take care. Drink up that water π
Thank you so much for your kind words Beloo. Yes, the whole point of writing this post was to release some of the pent up negativity in a positive way. Your wishes for all three of us is much appreciated. By the way, the water is keeping me collected π
Aal is well, Vinodini, aal is well π
Yes, Ravish aal is well. Thanks for the simple affirmation. Great to see you on my blog. Hope to see you here on my better days as well π
So sorry about everything that's gone wrong lately – here's hoping tomorrow is a much better day!
Hey, Laurel thanks a lot of your good wishes.
Oh dear, that sounds like a rough few days. Sending you hugs and love to cancel out the anger and color that red into a mild shade of pink. All will be well soon.
Hugs right back Shailaja…I already feel better with all your good wishes. I'm back to pink now π
A BIG hug coming your way, dear! Life's like that, only..:-(
A much need hug Shilpa…thank you so much! Yeah, life's like that, but it does get overwhelming at times and it helps to write about it and release it π
Ohh I know how sometimes everything seems to be wrong… Don't worry..hugs!
Yeah Naba, thanks for the comforting words. Hugs <3
Hugs to you Vinodini. All will be better. Karma has a way!
Thank you for your comforting words Inderpreet. Yes, Karma is the only solace.
Poor you! *Hugs* Get well soon, looks like Murphy got a good couple of swipes but don't worry. As you said nobody can escape from the big K and those who did bad will get it in due time π
Well Keirthana, I hope so too. This too shall pass and those who deserve to pay, sure will some day. Thank you for the consoling hug π
Hmm… you seem to be having a tough time. All I can say is ride it out – this too shall pass. Hug your sonny boy and get well soon. Sending positive vibes your way :-).
Thanks Tulika. Yes, this too shall pass. I'm already feeling a lot better π
Some days are like this! Don't worry everything will be back to normal soon, Vinodini. π Hugs ??
I guess so Vinitha π Thank you for the warm hug π
I hope you, your son and your dog are well soon. Writing can be so therapeutic. Hugs.
Thank you Suzy. Really appreciate the good wishes from you.
Sorry to hear of your series of mishaps there Vinnie: I would be angry too! So stamp your feet, shout out, dance/shake your body, write, do whatever you feel inclined to do. If possible, listen to the wisdom of your body as it is so wise and always knows whats to do…we just get in the way sometimes! Hope all goes well for you and your son. Take care, and in the meantime a big hug from me. ((Vinodini)) <– a hug from me π <3
Thank you so much Elly. One thing keeps following the other, so I'm taking your tips on dancing, shaking and more important writing to vent it off. You're right, sometimes we just have to listen to our bodies and go with the flow. Your hug was really warm and comforting <3 Here's one from me to you –> ((Elly)) π
I am so sorry you are going through all this… I hope happy days are not far. And don't worry, leave it to Karma … she will kick them, in high heels π
Yeah Raj, just waiting for karma to slip into her pointed heels and do her bit π Thank you, I already feel better imagining it π